Something to get off my chest.

You hate me and you know what? I completely understand why. It’s not new that I fucked up and someones not willing to turn the other cheek and let me slip so easily to think that my actions are tolerable but I’m not going to share that bitter taste you have for me, you did nothing wrong and I was stupid, although this is a completely void idea, You would have to be the only woman I know that if I could, I’d turn the time back and I would have just met you. I would have just loved you because you did call me your soul mate and even if you probably didn’t mean it, I’m feeling foolish for dismissing a love like yours because maybe you were the girl I would have been with and would have never traded up because of your headstrong attitude and the way you’re not afraid to fight me. I appreciated the way you reluctantly opened up to me in little bits and in the end fought me so hard you fell for me, maybe it was just infatuation but there was something about you that kept me on my toes and you were just what I needed in someone. I accept now that I was definitely to blame and I’ll never be able to even get you to just see me in a different light. To you, I’m scum, the asshole who thought he could have his cake and eat it too. You to me are the woman I let get away. I wish I just gave you me and not doubted you the way I did because I was so undeserving and a pig. That’s life though, you win some, you lose some.